Aug/075
Private: Black Dog
So if I'm going to do the Samuel Pepys thing, I might as well go the whole hog. There have been subjects I've avoided writing about on this blog. Sex is top of that list, and that won't change, but I've never really broached the subject of depression. It's not even a word I particularly want to use, so hereafter I'll use Winston Churchill's euphemism 'Black Dog'. 
The black dog has always been a part of my life. Sometimes I suffer from it, but mostly I just live with it. It's chronic, a part of me. It's why I ski, why I climb, why I work and why I go very quiet sometimes. The black dog is that lover, father, mother... that thing that's bad for you. So bad for you and yet so seductive. It's a part of all of us and because of that I'm going to start writing about it. In fact I'm going to start a new category. If you read these words and want to read more, click 'black dog' on the category list to read everything on the subject. It's all about taxonomy :)
Here's one thought - what do you think? True or false....
"The externally noticeable symptoms of depression are indistinguishable from the externally noticeable symptoms of being a complete dick."
August 23rd, 2007
I fucking hate the black dog too. Hate it, resent it, wish I could kill it and sometimes embrace it. I wouldn’t wish it on the world and you know I’ll always be there if you need me to do anything for you mate.
August 23rd, 2007
I love ya baby
x
August 23rd, 2007
what do I mean by chronic? Just that it’s part of my pysiological makeup. It always will be, although I can choose to control and treat it if I wish.
I like the ‘gone dark’ term… does it go the other ay too/ Do you ever go loud?
August 22nd, 2007
When I get depressed I turn my phone off and go for long walks through the city… which was often referred to as being a dick by friends until they coined the term “gone dark…” which I much prefer (Jack Baure connotations not withstanding) !
August 22nd, 2007
Chris, the black dog is only a small part of wonderful you! For sure you must write about such moods and coping mechanisms. Could you describe what you mean exactly by the term chronic?